Friday 8 March 2013
Happiness in Me by Valarie Budayr
As I look back on my life and even now in my life, I’ve never been one that fits in. I’ve always phrased this as “ I’m not normal”. This usually mystifies people because I look like any other suburban house wife until you get a little bit closer.
I’ve always had my own way of doing things. I’ve never wanted to be like anyone else except when I’m wanting to be “normal and usual.” There was a time in my life after I got married where I really tried to be like everyone else. What followed was a deep depression, and a sense of failure. I just didn’t feel good or right in my own skin.
One day my husband looked at me and said, “Why not just be you? Those that love you will be right here and those that don’t get you don’t need to be. “ Such wisdom at the morning breakfast table.
It was then that I found my sense of place in my “work”, my creativity.
Whatever I’m creating is the right place for me. It’s when I’m at my happiest.
It’s become my habit when I’m feeling out of sorts or kind of funky, “Who are you trying to make happy ?” The answer to that question should always be “me”. Always. Yes there are those times when a child needs me, a neighbor, family members, but every day has to have a moment in it where I make me happy.
Today’s happiness came from taking this photo of the winter’s sky.
Valarie Budayr is the founder of Audrey Press and the award-winning and best-selling author of the book The Fox Diaries: The Year the Foxes Came to our Garden and The Ultimate Guide to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. She is passionate about making kid’s books come alive and you can find her doing that on her popular blog and website, Jump into a Book. When she isn’t being bookie, she is very happily the mother of three uber creative children, married to a wonderfully patient man who has come to love yarn, and caretaker of one adored cat. Other creative interests are music, travel, knitting (a bonafide yarn harlot), and gardening. She loves living a daily creative practice, where even a good cup of coffee is art.